REGRETS

Two of the greatest regrets a person can have- one- of being misunderstood, especially in ways we couldn’t even dream of imagining. The most frustrating part of all is sitting up thinking and evaluating just how did the person misunderstand you, what word or phrase did you say that had double meaning or where exactly was the punctuation mark misplaced, what…..What was it that transformed the meaning of your statement completely into something that even you are stunned to hear. And, infact, at times it’s even more mind boggling and eventful to contemplate how the conversation could have gone but rather, how it went and the consequences to follow. Each time you teach yourself to be cautious enough and still end up getting judged wrongly, you ultimately realize it’s actually not your fault, but a serious fault in your stars. The other, well the other is more of a shock- the state of speechlessness when someone we think knows us well,  taunts us but we chose to remain silent, not because we cannot speak or that we don’t have anything to talk about or that we are timid, but rather because we think it’s too low for us to salt the wounds of that person, especially when we believed him/her to be from our own pack. Calling it just regret would be an understatement of the palate of emotions we experience, a juxtapose of sadness as to why is it that people take our silence to be our weakness, anguish of why the speaker can’t be considerate enough, when we are being the same to him/her and a rebuttal that we go through, in our minds, justifying why we can’t demean people just the way they do. Oh god!, But that why, that very why, emerges strong every single time, and that is why we can never belong to the opposite side of the argument line. Though the arguments can justify the why of our nature, I have never been able to understand firstly, why people equate ‘being good’ to ‘being weak’. Yet again, not everybody has the audacity to understand that being good is not an obligation but rather a choice- brave to make, difficult to follow and highly irresistible when something of the two happens.